Sunday, December 20, 2009

A lesson in heart ache...

This past week, and especially yesterday, I had a new lesson in learning how to lean on God in times of sorrow. I, with Chet by my side, attended a friend's funeral (who is also my coworker). Though I have attended funerals of grandparents and small patients in the past, this one was far harder as I have been asking "why" over and over and aching for her husband and newborn baby.

Last week, Maricris collapsed in her husband's arms after complaining of a horrible headache. At 38 weeks pregnant, she suffered a fatal cerebral aneurysm and was placed on life support. Her beautiful baby, Hannah, was delivered in perfect health but Maricris didn't make it. Now, her husband of 3 years and this beautiful newborn baby are without a wife and mother. Such a sudden loss... and unexpected loss... a painful loss. It breaks my heart to have a joy filled 28 year old expecting her first baby with all the hopes and dreams of a family and a long life with her one love to be taken away without ever holding her child or seeing her face. Though I trust that God has a plan, I can't understand it. I feel such an ache for her family, for her friends and for all those she blessed with her life. She was a strong Christian with an evident love of the Lord so I know she is now with her Savior, but it doesn't eliminate how much everyone misses her here.

Having such a loss of someone who I cared about and is my age has caused Chet and I to do a lot of thinking. How am I living my life? Am I living in the joy of the Lord each day, not knowing when He may call me or my loved ones home? Am I loving others fully and completely? Also, it reminds me that trusting does not always mean understanding... I don't understand why Maricris passed away just before meeting her daughter she had waited for and loved. I don't understand why this happened to such an amazing, dear woman of God! Yet, I trust that God has a plan and that He is laying His loving hands on her husband, daughter, family and friends, never leaving us in our sorrow.

If you have a chance, pray for this amazing family in their time of loss and sorrow.

Brianne

1 comment:

  1. That is so incredibly heartbreaking! After spending this summer in the hospital with Jack, my eyes were opened to so much heartache... You are right - life is precious and each day is a blessing. I am praying right now for this precious new baby and the dad. For comfort and peace.

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