Letting go...

The last couple days, I've been feeling a bit anxious as I try to contemplate what direction my life is going. I am waiting on a response in regards to a job I interviewed for last week and I feel like it takes FOREVER to hear. Part of this anxiety, I'm sure, is because I am needing to be patient (which I'm not very good at) and part of it is because I want to know "yes" or "no" so I can move on. I don't like "being on hold".

But in some ways, I think God is using this time to remind me (yet again) that He is in control and I just need to let go and trust Him with where my life is going. His plans are certainly better than mine, right?

So, tonight I remembered this song, I'm Letting Go by Francesca Battistelli... it certainly speaks to how I want to give up the life I've planned for what God has in store (and it does it to a catchy tune). This one is definitely going to be on my "frequently repeated" list for awhile... :)

My heart beats, standing on the edge

But my feet have finally left the ledge

Like an acrobat

There’s no turning back

I’m letting go

Of the life I planned for me

And my dreams

I’m losing control

Of my destiny

It feels like I’m falling and that’s what it’s like to believe

So I’m letting go

This is a giant leap of faith

Trusting and trying to embrace

The fear of the unknown

Beyond my comfort zone

Giving in to your gravity

Knowing You are holding me

I'm not afraid

Feels like I'm falling and that's what it's like to believe

Feels like I'm falling and this is the life for me